Monday, February 12, 2007 @Monday, February 12, 2007
He walked out of my life. I don't know how and I don't know why this happened . But ... I know if i could turn back time once more .. again and again i would tell you and let you know how much did i really loved you back then. Yet now, we both have moved on surprisingly fast as if the 5 months that we took together never existed. But it did. Even though we both know that somehow we never were meant to be, why was it that we were able to stay for so long? Why were we able to love each other that much? After that day when we came true about how we both felt.. Didn't it feel that ... that for the first time somehow ,we truly agreed with something? That maybe remaining as friends was the best choice. That we were never , never suppose to fall in love. Even though now i know i can no longer say those things that once i wanted to tell you . Things and ways that i felt. S0mehow when i just stop , look back ... i still know that some part of me .. Somewhere .. a small part would have never never stop loving you. And that i know I would never forget you. If one day i lost my memories and i could choose those i could keep. I'd keep the happy times i had with you and throw away the sad ones. That way i'd remember how you touched my heart ... and not break my heart ... You wanted to patch though . But you told me out of guilt. Not from your heart. The truth was that i was half-hearted when i said " Yes" . How was I to know if i had to go through all this again ? I am glad that neither of our hearts are feeling sad. And am happy to know that even though all these happened and that i could never looked into your eyes once more nor at you .. somehow we are still friends. =) Yt'
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