YUAN! (:

Thursday, April 17, 2008 @Thursday, April 17, 2008

` it's one of a kind.

Ok, i think i'm officially confused.

Anyway, i'm in the comp lab. (SS Class) With that stupid idiotic chicken behind me
Crowing non-stop. It's soooo irritating.
Had E and A maths earlier.
Will fail e maths test without a doubt.
Polynomials is .. making me ... go crazy.
Esp. long division. But the synthetic method is quite easy.
Waiting for Trial And Error method, if they're gonna teach it.

Recess is like normal. Didn't get a chance to do duty.
By the time i reach, my shift's over.
Saw him in the canteen.
We were expressionless.
Just looked at each other everytime we pass by.
SIGH !

hais. I know i still like him alot .. but .. i dont know.
Maybe it's a passing moment ?
Besides, i dont know him that well , so i guess..
I'm convincing myself! hahaha.
Sigh.

He comes later to school now so that i wouldn't have to see him with them
Is that it ? or is it just because he doesn't want to see me? Or what?
I'm so confused.

And i know i'm not talking alot in class anymore
and i'm like so much quieter.
I'm so messed up inside. And i don't know how to say it.
Hais.

When i look at that particular picture of him , i feel so..sad.
But i just can't tear away my eyes from it.
Why why why.

Why am i clinging onto a ghost ?
Why am i still clinging to what cannot be?

Because, somehow, sometimes,
there would have been this chance, unexpectedly that would have suddenly
told me that maybe, there was a possibility.

But why am i letting that hold me back?
i just can't forget him.
After all this time.
Why ?

I'm all out of faith
This is how i feel
I'm cold
Bound and broken on the floor
Illusions never change , into something real
I'm wide away and i can see the perfect sky is torn
You're alittle late
I'm already torn.

Yuan!
i'll wait till that day when i look in that picture, i would be strong enough to turn the page without another thought. till then, i don't know what's gonna happen.